Have you ever met a genuinely happy single person in Utah? Well you have now. I know, I KNOW. It's hard to believe. I'm probably overcompensating for the withered and broken heart inside my chest. I only think I'm happy, but that's because I know not the happiness that comes from "being married to my best friend" ... well let me tell you something. My best friend is a girl, and although I love her with all my heart, no. I prefer the male of the species.
Here's the thing. Yesterday, I watched the second of my best friends be sealed for tiiiiime and all eternityyyyy (Madame Zeroni if you didn't get that), and let me TELL YOU. It was the happiest. A few months ago, I went to my first sealing, of another best friend. These people walk into that room and they are just GLOWING. A glow better than that pregnancy glow you hear about. They are grinning idiots, and I sit there grinning at their grinning and we all look pretty stupid. But my gosh, it is the happiest day of their lives and I am freaking happy for them. I am. I wasn't always this way, though. You should know that. In previous years, I've been worried that I would feel bitter or lonely on the days my best friends got married. Because like many here in this great state, I thought my happiness was going to be in direct correlation with the ring on my left ring finger. (Ok it kind of is, because right now I'm wearing a deathly hallows ring and Harry Potter makes me pretty happy.)
BUT YOU GET IT. If you have ever been a single young adult in Utah, YOU GET IT. Here is a conversation I have had with multiple 5-year-olds (or maybe just the same one a few different times. Love you Miles)
Miles: How old are you?
Me: 23
Miles: Why aren't you married?
We've alllllll been there... right? (unless you were married at 19)
ANYWAYS, point is, seeing my friends that happy made me so excited to have that. To be sitting on that couch, feeling like a queen, holding on for dear life to the hand of the man I lurrrrve. But the thing is, I can still be happy while I wait for that dude. And I am.
I have a great job, a flourishing (hehehehehehehee not) business, a real cool family, some stellar friends, a brother who has been where I am, and a Father in heaven who loves me and wants me to be happy and have joy, and who created Lexapro so that I can be! *winky face*
I am where I am, in life right now. I'm the cool single aunt, with the huge iPad and eternally messy hair. I could be bitter for being single, but I'm choosing not to be.
Here is my journey.
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